The past few months I've been hit with a creative bug and I have run with it. It made me debate on changing how often I post, but at the end of the day I decided to just schedule things months in advance and role with it. It does mean that I share less about my daily life and current happenings than I ever have before. But it does make blogging so much fun. I think it's also what has kept the creative bug going. Suddenly my planning has become an extensive process. It's not just about my mood, it's about seeing a new technique and wanting to experiment with it and actually do it.
A lot of the self portraits you'll be seeing over the next few months will be a part of that. Occasionally though I take pictures that just don't fit. It makes me uncertain what to do with them. I've been inspired by Dainty Squids daily photo project and figured doing something similar would be a great way to showcase the photos that don't fit. So that's what today's is about.
Last month at the gleam event I saw this spotlight and it was perfect. I knew I wanted a self portrait of me standing underneath the light but I hadn't brought my tripod. I took test shots, got the lighting how I wanted it and then... Kevin. I had Kevin step into the spot I wanted, hold the camera and press the button. I stitched three pictures together to get it the way I wanted. Is it perfect? Far from it, but it worked. I don't want to count it as a self portrait because I didn't press the button, but it's something I worked hard for. Six months ago I never would have thought to do what I did to get this shot.
That's the great thing about going to events. Gleam in particular, had me really scrabbling to get the type of shots I wanted. Placing my camera on the ground, waiting for the right moment, aka no people walking into my view finder, and capturing the dance of lights on the cobblestone. Or rearranging the flower until it was perfectly in focus with interesting lightening behind and lastly getting the spiderweb to show up in the dark with minimal lighting. I had fun and it was good to be challenged.
Then my pryo kitty arrived and I knew I just had to find a way to capture it. I absolutely love how it turned how.
A lot of days I feel like I am not improving. That my ideas are stale and no longer unique. But then I flip through the things I have created and I get excited because I realize that I am a photographer. Not only am I a photographer but I'm an artist, who has the ability to express the emotions wanted with my images and my words.
It might not mean success in the traditional sense, but it's success to me. I no longer feel stunted by a crushing world. The decisions I make are the right ones for me. Feeding my creativity and following that path is the best thing and I hope you feel the same sense of accomplishment in all that you do. It's taken me a long time to feel like I can openly pursue my passion. I will forever be growing and learning but I finally feel like I can put in the hard work.
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