Looking Back - 2014 A Year of Self Portraits

Self Portraiture has been a huge part of my life. Through imagery I found myself. I love looking back at those images and seeing how far I have come - in confidence, body image, and skill. 

WELCOME TO 2014 ANGELA

These first two photos are a) how we started off the year and b) completely ridiculous and terrible, but they sum things up pretty well. 

Personal life was utterly fantastic in 2014. On top of the proposal, we got to go to Cuba, two nephews were born into the family, and we went on lots of trips with friends - to BC, Drumheller and Edmonton. Kevin let me doing the lamest "wedding couple thing" for a blog series. We printed off a bunch of questions, you had to answer the question for the other person and then see if they get your answer right. It was fun and completely ridiculous. We really enjoyed life. 

Work life however, was not going well. I only shot a handful of photos myself. Getting through the work day was the bare minimum I could do, so I could either go out and enjoy life outside of work or home to bed. I hated every second of it. If we didn't have plans I went home and slept. I feel like I slept through most of this year and not in a good way. Kevin took over all household cleaning and meals. We were spending money left, right, and center. By the end of the year I walked away from a job I hated, heavily depressed, and exhausted to the bone. Our wedding was coming up in February the next year and the only things I had had enough energy to plan so far was the venue, the dress, and the photographer. 

It's interesting talking about this year, because it feels almost like two different lives. Outside of work, life was amazing and we went on many adventures. At work I was depressed, unmotivated, and not functioning well. This was really the start of understanding who I truly was without the definitions of others. Up to this point, I had just been learning to love my outside, that was the original purpose of taking the self portraits. When things hit the fan, I discovered there's more to me than the outside and I needed to work on the inside. I had to start figuring out who I really was, who I wanted to take orders from, and how I wanted to live my life. Like in 2011, where our lives had changed so Kevin could go to school, we had to start planning for the future there was only one semester to go. More changes, even bigger ones than before. 

Life isn’t about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.
— George Bernard Shaw