I Get To Love You
Music was a huge part of my teenage "rebellion". I learned how to hide the music I listened to and cover it with approved sounds. As I've grown away from "rebellion", l have begun to listen for the pleasure and found the lyrics begin to form deep meanings in my head. I tend to over analysis most of the songs I listen to and apply them to my current mood. It's also been something Kevin and I have been talking about, during our Sunday drives to yoga. We usually hop in the car and my music pops up annoying him and so he begins a search for music that we will both enjoy.
The song choices tend to bring about discussion, as we both have different tastes and finding things to bridge that gap can be a struggle. In this particular discussion we talked about rappers and our preferred artists. I had mentioned how if it was a woman rapper I was more likely to listen to the song than if it was a man. I initially felt this to be very sexist of me. Kevin's thoughts on it was that men tend to rap from a tone of possession when speaking to or about women. Whereas women are from admiration or love. And while there are obviously moments where songs overlap in both areas, it made me feel better about preferring one over the other. Songs about possession are not my thing.
This brings me to the lyrics you see on the left. A song I found randomly one night while searching for music to put me to sleep. This one, on repeat did the trick. I put it on again while we were getting ready for bed, which sparked the continuation of our conversation. Kevin brought up that the song, from his perspective was that she was turning herself into a possession. Basing this on the line "it's the best thing that I'll ever do". Which wasn't a perspective I had thought from and while I understand it, I prefer to think of her of consciously making the choice to love.
The conscious decision sometimes goes against all we've been taught and all that we've learned. Coming to love someone can be a struggle and choosing to be kind and love someone is one of the greatest things we can do. Because in learning that, we learn to love ourselves. Love is so powerful, emotional, and enduring. Love can change and grow, it means different things to everyone.
The song for me is a reminder of the choice I made, to accept love and learn how to become it. To be deserving and return the love given to me. It's not only applied to my partner but my friends, family, and pets. The choice to no longer allow myself to be bitter or defined by others.
But that's my take. What's your thoughts?
Think I over-analysis music too much? I'd love to hear your thoughts on this song and your choice in music.