Body Shame in the Yoga Studio
I go almost everyday and dance to a yoga teachers song. Everyday I go my chaturangas get deeper, my upward dog pulls through better, my feet feel right. Everyday I go I am bombarded with the loudness of others within the class and I begin to overhear much more than I normally like. The worst came from a student telling a teacher about something her daughter said to her.
Now this child was probably around 3 or 4 and she just got told by her mother, that jiggle is not normal.
Except it is.
Skin is our bodies cover and it does a lot of work. It holds us together, it stretches as we grow, it heals itself to protect us. We do a lot of damage to our skin and are not kind to it. Skin is elastic, it's not meant to stay still. It's meant to moved, shift, stretch.
Jiggle is NORMAL.
What hurt more though than this mother, who was not body confident and beginning to teach her daughter that she too wasn't good enough.
Was the teacher agreeing.
She not only agreed but went on to talk about the benefits of the class and how great our bodies could be. She continued to perpetuate the idea of this "perfect" body. Instead of commenting on how wonderful our bodies are already and how natural that movement is.
These photos are of me in king pigeon pose. I absolutely love this pose, hence the smiling. However I am not a fan of how I look in this pose. My arms and shoulders look crazy, my butt is huge and my alignment isn't perfect. Yoga shouldn't be all about perfect bodies in perfect form.
And that's why I am sharing these. These photos don't make me fully comfortable but they are who I am. They show my great personality and they show how far I've come. Six months ago I couldn't lift my back leg. Six months from now, maybe I'll have a different grip, ten years from now maybe the full backbend.
This is my body and it is freaking awesome!
And I hope I am part of that. One of the best after class things that have happened to me was being told I had a great smile. And it made my night. It would be so lovely to be able to spread that.