Balloons of Truth
I'm out here to put a physical thing to a mental release. Since reading Mother's Who Can't Love, I've had this picture in my head. This week I spent most of my time preparing and then capturing that picture. The original idea was to take the lies and burn them. Then take the truth, tie it to a balloon, and release it. However it didn't feel right to me. While fire is cleansing, it wouldn't remove the lies. The person who taught them to me would still believe them. Instead I decided to release those lies, using the balloons to symbolize that. By releasing them, I removed the hold on me. Now the lies hold back only the person who created them and I have beautiful imagary of my release.
The Lies I Released
The lie about respect
The lie about whose feelings should be first
The lie about not being good enough to succeed
The lie about love
The Truth I Gained
Respect - Understanding that respect is a two way street, no matter age, sex or relationship. You are deserving of respect.
Feelings - Your emotions are valid. You are allowed to have emotions. You are allowed to express anger, frustration, sadness, joy, energy. Not only are your emotions valid but they deserve to be respect and you deserve the ability to better understand them.
Not Good Enough - Why aren't we good enough? What's your definition of good enough? And who cares if we fail? Failure is a part of life and should be celebrated. Failure means you tried your best, didn't succeed, but can learn and take a new approach .I am flabbergasted by how many people say this without thinking. I think this is one of the cruelest things to say to a person.
Love - "No one will ever love you the way I do" Thank goodness there is better/real love out there because I don't want a controlling love. Love is free, love is unbounding and love is the deepest part of your soul bursting with pride of the people around you.