Looking Back - 2012 A Year of Self Portraits

Self Portraiture has been a huge part of my life. Through imagery I found myself. I love looking back at those images and seeing how far I have come - in confidence, body image, and skill. 


I have led a very privileged life. Even in this year when I got a second job. In our minds, at the time, it was a second job for fun and not out of need. I liked running, no longer had a gym membership, and wanted a discount on running gear (shoes are expensive!!)

I had an obsession with high waisted flared pants, striped shirts and neck scarves. I also got busy enough that eventually the outfit picture taking slowed down. The pictures below do show a few changes - red tired eyes (from not sleeping and migraines), hair starts off professionally colored and fades into doing it myself (because while I could still afford starbucks daily and new clothes every week, there wasn't enough to go professional), and the fun poses were still there but less than before. There's less color and more brown in my wardrobe. 

That was the first half of the year anyways. Deciding that change was a good thing, I jumped feet first and made more changes.

First was the purchase of a new camera. In August I bought my Nikon D5100. I still use it to this day, with the kit lens it came with. I've gone through one entire battery, two tripods, and three camera remotes. This camera is life (and I think it's dying...). This camera came thanks to my bonus which should have been for savings. 

Another was a job change. The job I had been loving the year before had gotten a little intense. There was massive changes within the company. The team I assisted took a lot of their frustration over clients out on me and the photocoper. My manager who I had, had for years left and was replaced with a heavily perfume woman who felt the need to show who was boss. 

I applied for many jobs and eventually got one a 15 minute walk from home. My first day on the job I had to go as bold as I could, wearing all black and a bright pink blazer. My new co-workers talked about that outfit for months. I might be shy but I love to make a statement!

I also took up rock climbing and got a weird pair of glasses. I quit my running room job and started to sleep again (mostly because doctors gave me little blue pills).

Things it seemed, were looking up. I still struggled with Kevin going back to school, but with one year down and only 3 more to go it felt like there was a little light at the end of the tunnel. I got a bit more creative taking photos. I was ready for the new year. 

When you arise in the morning, think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive - to breathe, to think, to enjoy, to love.
— Marcus Aurelius

I'm a lifestyle blogger, covering deep subjects including body images, battles with food, and overcoming how I was raised. I try to be as authentic as possible and I don’t sugar coat how I see things.