A Birthday

This year has been a challenging one in so many ways. The one thing consistent is Kevin. His never ending belief that I am a good person, no matter what my emotions, fears, or family tell me, has really held me together. I've said it before and probably will always say it but I didn't mean to fall in love. I didn't want to find a truly wonderful human and spend the rest of my life trying to see myself how he sees me. 

Yet here I am. 11 years in and it's his 31 Birthday. Kevin is not an easy person to shop for. When he does want something it's usual something super expensive and I have to spend months gathering funds to get it. I would love to shower him in gifts, much like he does for me. But it isn't always possible to do so and I struggle with how to show/express my feelings.

I want to do the same for his family, who not only raised an amazing man but are fully accepting of me and supportive of us. Supportive even when our ideas are a little crazy and not always planned thoroughly (like when we decided to move before we knew where we were going). 

One day I hope to see what he sees in me. For today I'll be thankful to have him by my side. 

Happy Birthday Kevin, cheers to many many more. 

what am i to you he asks
i put my hands in his lap
and whisper you
are every hope
i’ve ever had
in human form
— Rupi Kaur - Milk and Honey, page 49