I am weirded out by my lack of creative drive. I have always created, always had something to write about or an idea in my head that I want to create an image of. As I said in my March recap it’s been a long time since I’ve not had posts lined up like crazy for the blog. And while I am definitely weirded out by it, I am also enjoying it. My brain feels sufficiently challenged, I am satisfied and I am happy. I have some fears I am working through. The biggest one is something I have written about dozens of times before but this past week it came up again. I got to go out and take photos with someone and it was a blast. I wish I was an extrovert who could just go out there, take pictures, and not feel uncomfortable. But I am not and so I have to figure out how to do something I really enjoy, get good at it, and also hopefully make others happy.
It’s also not that I don’t have ideas, it’s just a lot of the ideas feel impossible to bring into fruition. For example, I got a new hoodie and I haven’t posted a picture of it yet. My idea for it is in a pool wearing my black bikini but also my hoodie, sun on my face, legs in the water. Perfect pool day. But it’s too cold for the pools to be opened and that’s also awkward. I also know of a place that has dinosaurs and I keep picturing night time photos with car lights and smoke bombs and the dinosaurs in the background. So yes, it’s not that the ideas aren’t there, it’s just that smoke bombs and pools aren’t fully accessible yet and I need to work that out.
That’s essential how life works though, thinking something and then working out how to do it. For the time being it means my creativity bug is focusing on these two ideas and blocking out pretty much everything else. Hopefully I’ll be able to get to them before they disappear.
Are you a creative? What do you do with ideas what aren’t attainable but possible?
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