The Artists Way

A continuation of last weeks conversation regarding the book the Artists Way by Julia Cameron.

Week 11: Recovering a Sense of Autonomy

This week we focus on our artistic autonomy. We examine the ongoing ways in which we must nurture and accept ourselves as artists. We explore the behaviors that can strengthen our spiritual base and, therefore, our creative power. We take a special look at the ways in which success must be handled in order that we not sabotage our freedom.

Morning pages

Day 71 Tue - 3 pages and a task.
Day 72 Wed - 3 pages
Day 73 Thu - 3 pages
Day 74 Fri - 3 pages and a task.
Day 75 Sat - 3 pages
Day 76 Sun - 3 pages
Day 77 Mon - 3 pages

Glad I made it to the full three pages everyday this week. At times it was challenging.

The Artists Date

The Canceled Ice Cream Adventure and Other Things

Just to make things a little clearer, these posts are about 3 to 4 weeks behind my actual progress. It just worked out this way. So while this is posting in the third week of September, I actually did these activities during the third week of August. Our ice cream adventure was canceled or delayed depending on how you want to look at it. Nikki had plans and after a week of doing things with Kevin, I was people’d out. On one hand I want to say this was an excuse, on the other I did push myself to do a few things this week that I’ve been afraid of or putting off. So while it is an excuse to not do the ice cream aspect of this adventure, it wasn’t an excuse to get out of my artists date.

The thing I’ve been afraid of was doing a very specific photoshoot. I have had the idea in my mind for a while. But I haven’t had the guts to go out and do it. With the pool closing the first weekend of September, I knew I was running out of time. I also knew that I most likely won’t get it right on the first try. I got out of bed later than usual one morning, grabbed my gear and headed straight out before doing anything else. That way I couldn’t chicken out or over think it. I was right of course, the photos didn’t turn out exactly how I pictured it, but mostly that’s due to the environment and less of what I was doing. You can see those pictures in my peace and depression post. Future me wants to get waterproof case for my camera so I can get closer to what I am looking for (it’s just a pricey purchase). For a first attempt I think I did pretty good.

What I’ve been putting off is a little harder to explain. It’s been over a year since I broke up with my therapist. The problem with that is I just stopped going to therapy and that wasn’t the right approach. It’s taken me some time to get brave enough to try again and my first attempt failed. When I called to schedule and asked for a new therapist I was transferred to my “current” one and she won’t let me book with someone else because “I was fine”. This week I sent an email to her that was very firm in my request for a new therapist. As a health professional I hope she’ll honor it and I’ll be able to start the search over again for a therapist. I don’t expect this to be easy though, so I am working on my courage. I did this at the beginning of the week and by the end I hadn’t hear back, so I think I need to go above her head, but only after I’ve verified she isn’t on vacation.

This isn’t all that I did this week however.

  • Volunteered for the first time since we moved here.

  • Went kayaking with a friend.

  • Ended up getting ice cream and for free too.

  • Went to a show.

  • Had brunch and dinner with a friend.

  • Took a backflip class.

Honestly this week was insanely busy for me, but it was also really good!

Weekly Tasks

I only managed to do two maybe three of this weeks tasks. A few were harder to do, tape your own voice reading the basic principles… well the basic principles never spoke to me, so I would rather work on my affirmations and rewrite of it. Same goes for the artists prayer. The five ways in which I will continue to change is written out in my goals notebook, with dates and guidelines so that has already been done. As far as nurturing myself further for the next six months, well I’ve got classes and trips planned. My next book picked out and assignments to write, so I think I’ve got that too. Honestly it felt like the tasks were all things I had wrapped up. With the exception of personal synchronicity. I really struggle with the concept of synchronicity, even after having experienced it. It’s grown since then as well. I just don’t know quite how to nurture it beyond be nice to people and network. Neither of which come easy.

And that dear reader is week 11. Just one week to go. I honestly can’t believe it! What do you think so far?

Saying no can be the ultimate self-care.
— Claudia Black

I'm a lifestyle blogger, covering deep subjects including body images, battles with food, and overcoming how I was raised. I try to be as authentic as possible and I don’t sugar coat how I see things.